Treading over the broken roads,
In my rubber slippers,umbrella in hand,
The rain keeps falling,drop by drop.
Lithe,lively,bouncing off the broken rafters,
Like soldiers conquering an unknown land.
The fruit sellers haggle with the customers,
And water runs off the tarpaulin in little streams.
Forming small puddles on the walkway.
Yet amidst all this chaos,I find myself strangely at peace.
For this is my city,the land of lost dreams.
But alas,there is but one thing,
Loud enough to bring me out of my reverie.
The blaring horns of all those cars,buses,
autorickshaws,who are perpetually in a hurry,
Black-topped "babumoshais",with their spectacles all gone awry.
And in the middle of all this confusion,
The rain falls,slowly but steadily,
Calming all those exposed to it's touch,
With that exotic smell,of Mother Nature reborn.
Somewhere,in a makeshift shelter,an infant wails lustily.
And in your average house,the famished son returns,
Only to be greeted with steaming "Khichudi".
For it is a tradition,that the
Sons must never go hungry.
Because home,is where the heart can be free.
So many unknown faces,
So many fascinating things that I am yet to see.
So many lights,colours,sounds
That I see,feel and take in.
For this,this is Kolkata.The place where I want to be.
Friday 27 April 2012
Thursday 26 April 2012
ಥ_ಥ Well,I have a lackin' life.
So yeah.That feeling when you're washing your face and you get soap in your eye.ಥ_ಥ
Ouch. It burns like crazy.It's almost as bad as chilli,actually.
>Burns like acid,but is a base. :P (ಠ益ಠ ╬)
One of the weird oxymorons created by nature,I suppose. o__O
Dove soap.What IS that thing made out of exactly?No matter how many times I wash my face,it still feels like there's some left on my face.Total FUU moment,if you know what I mean.
Water.And figure skating.Why these two are dancing a duet and 'waltzing' into my life,I do not know.The other day,I was in the kitchen,randomly cooking pasta or something,and suddenly "Le wild puddle of water" appears in the tiled kitchen floor and I almost do an involuntary pirouette in the air,the likes of which could be (could be,mind you) compared to that of Princess Tutu.
Holy-
And then,my heart jumps a mile,and I feel like I could have died.
Earth-shattering experience,I tell you.
Alrighty,so the other day I was going to get some stuff,like vegetables and schizz,and then this furious wind comes whipping around the corner,and I feel like Marilyn Monroe even though I'm wearing jeans.
Stop staring and just get the point here.
I started singing. :D
'Cuz I'm spaazz yo~(☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞ ☜(ﾟヮﾟ☜) I was singing Carnival of Rust,like a boss,and God probably wanted me to shut up,so he swatted my face with an empty cardboard box.Very amusing,God.
I did not appreciate the gesture a lot,so I was forced to come back home.
I mean,the hell?I sing pretty good.Not all that lousy also. =.=
Anyway,I'm sleepy,and my mom is turning into a TRex with every passing minute,so I must go.(ಠ益ಠ ╬)
May the force be with you.Amen.
Ouch. It burns like crazy.It's almost as bad as chilli,actually.
>Burns like acid,but is a base. :P (ಠ益ಠ ╬)
One of the weird oxymorons created by nature,I suppose. o__O
Dove soap.What IS that thing made out of exactly?No matter how many times I wash my face,it still feels like there's some left on my face.Total FUU moment,if you know what I mean.
Water.And figure skating.Why these two are dancing a duet and 'waltzing' into my life,I do not know.The other day,I was in the kitchen,randomly cooking pasta or something,and suddenly "Le wild puddle of water" appears in the tiled kitchen floor and I almost do an involuntary pirouette in the air,the likes of which could be (could be,mind you) compared to that of Princess Tutu.
Holy-
And then,my heart jumps a mile,and I feel like I could have died.
Earth-shattering experience,I tell you.
Alrighty,so the other day I was going to get some stuff,like vegetables and schizz,and then this furious wind comes whipping around the corner,and I feel like Marilyn Monroe even though I'm wearing jeans.
Stop staring and just get the point here.
I started singing. :D
'Cuz I'm spaazz yo~(☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞ ☜(ﾟヮﾟ☜) I was singing Carnival of Rust,like a boss,and God probably wanted me to shut up,so he swatted my face with an empty cardboard box.Very amusing,God.
I did not appreciate the gesture a lot,so I was forced to come back home.
I mean,the hell?I sing pretty good.Not all that lousy also. =.=
Anyway,I'm sleepy,and my mom is turning into a TRex with every passing minute,so I must go.(ಠ益ಠ ╬)
May the force be with you.Amen.
Wednesday 25 April 2012
I just wish you'll be able to heal me.
So yeah,I'm in XI'th grade now.Feels all grown up-ish and all.
So,the other day,I was listening to this song.Called "Both sides,now."
IT'S AMAZING,if you know what I mean.And that,coming from a person who listens to a song 15 times before she rates it as good,well..you get the point here.
Also,it just took me 2 replays to like the song.It's THAT good.
So,our school starts from 30th.
I kinda felt bad,in the beginning.
I was kinda beginning to cave in,shutting myself out from the rest of the world,and schizz.It was a dark,dark,place,and I feared I was going to drown in my own darkness.
Yes,the world wouldn't have noticed.I like to be extremely secretive about my feelings.My mask is a reinforced,hardened one,with expressions of steel.
Yes,here and there you'll catch glimpses of my lonely smile peeking out.Sometimes I just feel like screaming my lungs out at the end off a cliff.
Ironically enough,my own voice comes resounding back at me,bouncing off the own dark walls,the impenetrable prison,that my mind is.
Yes,we'll all turn insane one day.Insane,because destiny is predetermined.No matter what course we take,we're going to end up at a crossroad all over again.
Insanity,versus oblivion.
Wouldn't it be great,to just sink back into the recesses of your mind and float in pure,calm,unadulterated stillness?
Sometimes music helps me to run away from the chaos.When I put those earphones in,and shut out all the other meaningless,unimportant sounds,it feels like heaven.It feels like..bliss.The meaningless things,shut out and it's just "me and my lights",to help me get by.
I'm in a mess,my mind is in chaos,and most nights I cry myself to sleep,because of either a) Utterly meaningless people whose lives don't really matter to me(Bleh xP)
,or b) people who are interwoven into my life so drastically that one little thing they do hurt me this much.
I'm a very twisted teen.Most people just say "what would you know?You don't have any problems at all" when I try to think about myself,for a change.Yes,I'm not always awesome.There are times when I'm so lonely,blankly staring at the sky,with stars twinkling feebly,as I wonder,if I'll be able to love again.
Yes,I have been scarred.First loves aren't something you forget so easily.And when I love,I love passionately,without any trace of adultery or whatever crap that is.It's like a disease,fast spreading among people of our generation.
People nowadays are very vocal about their feelings.But I- Idk.
I'm like this.I'm very shy,and uh..I don't like inconveniencing other people,neither do I like to hurt them.
I wish somebody who was considerate,and caring,and someone who could be at par with my retardness showed up.Although I'm actually very gentle on the inside,and that's a side I don't show to a lot of people.
It's like I'm lost,in a crowd,waiting for that one person to bump into me,to find me.
Are you the one?Can you please heal me?Can you stop myself from losing my mind?
Maybe one day,I'll fall asleep,and I won't wake up normal ever again.I'm scared,you know.I don't know what'll happen to me,and I most certainly don't want to drown.
Save me,from this mess.Please.
It's like I'm alternating between Reality,and my dark subconscious.
I need my light.Or I'm going to lose myself.
So,the other day,I was listening to this song.Called "Both sides,now."
IT'S AMAZING,if you know what I mean.And that,coming from a person who listens to a song 15 times before she rates it as good,well..you get the point here.
Also,it just took me 2 replays to like the song.It's THAT good.
So,our school starts from 30th.
I kinda felt bad,in the beginning.
I was kinda beginning to cave in,shutting myself out from the rest of the world,and schizz.It was a dark,dark,place,and I feared I was going to drown in my own darkness.
Yes,the world wouldn't have noticed.I like to be extremely secretive about my feelings.My mask is a reinforced,hardened one,with expressions of steel.
Yes,here and there you'll catch glimpses of my lonely smile peeking out.Sometimes I just feel like screaming my lungs out at the end off a cliff.
Ironically enough,my own voice comes resounding back at me,bouncing off the own dark walls,the impenetrable prison,that my mind is.
Yes,we'll all turn insane one day.Insane,because destiny is predetermined.No matter what course we take,we're going to end up at a crossroad all over again.
Insanity,versus oblivion.
Wouldn't it be great,to just sink back into the recesses of your mind and float in pure,calm,unadulterated stillness?
Sometimes music helps me to run away from the chaos.When I put those earphones in,and shut out all the other meaningless,unimportant sounds,it feels like heaven.It feels like..bliss.The meaningless things,shut out and it's just "me and my lights",to help me get by.
I'm in a mess,my mind is in chaos,and most nights I cry myself to sleep,because of either a) Utterly meaningless people whose lives don't really matter to me(Bleh xP)
,or b) people who are interwoven into my life so drastically that one little thing they do hurt me this much.
I'm a very twisted teen.Most people just say "what would you know?You don't have any problems at all" when I try to think about myself,for a change.Yes,I'm not always awesome.There are times when I'm so lonely,blankly staring at the sky,with stars twinkling feebly,as I wonder,if I'll be able to love again.
Yes,I have been scarred.First loves aren't something you forget so easily.And when I love,I love passionately,without any trace of adultery or whatever crap that is.It's like a disease,fast spreading among people of our generation.
People nowadays are very vocal about their feelings.But I- Idk.
I wish somebody who was considerate,and caring,and someone who could be at par with my retardness showed up.Although I'm actually very gentle on the inside,and that's a side I don't show to a lot of people.
It's like I'm lost,in a crowd,waiting for that one person to bump into me,to find me.
Are you the one?Can you please heal me?Can you stop myself from losing my mind?
Maybe one day,I'll fall asleep,and I won't wake up normal ever again.I'm scared,you know.I don't know what'll happen to me,and I most certainly don't want to drown.
Save me,from this mess.Please.
It's like I'm alternating between Reality,and my dark subconscious.
I need my light.Or I'm going to lose myself.
Thursday 19 April 2012
Wednesday 18 April 2012
Tuesday 17 April 2012
Monday 16 April 2012
Sunday 15 April 2012
ভূতের ভবিষ্যত
It has all my favorite actors. What else can I say?
An extremely gripping,fun story,told with a supernatural twist.
I LOVED it.Just the fact that I had to watch it from the first row,was a bit..annoying.
Way to go. :D
There was a strong wind blowing by the time I came home.
It was chilly. :3
An extremely gripping,fun story,told with a supernatural twist.
I LOVED it.Just the fact that I had to watch it from the first row,was a bit..annoying.
Way to go. :D
There was a strong wind blowing by the time I came home.
It was chilly. :3
Saturday 14 April 2012
নববর্ষ!!
Its নববর্ষ, also known as Bengali New Year.Not much to look forward to,except for the fact that you get new clothes.You HAVE to get new clothes,whether you like it or not.
It's kinda like a ritual.
Talked to my brother today.He's Mr.Hot Stuff at the moment,doing Ghazal concerts and everything.
We're cool with each other.Like cool yo.
Nothing special,actually.I'm just so bored.
It's kinda like a ritual.
Talked to my brother today.He's Mr.Hot Stuff at the moment,doing Ghazal concerts and everything.
We're cool with each other.Like cool yo.
Nothing special,actually.I'm just so bored.
Wednesday 11 April 2012
They wrote a song about me. :3
Bring me back to holding hands in the rain,
I swear I'd ease your pain.
Lift you up so you could finally see
The love you are to me.
I've had time and I've had change
I've been broken but still I can't explain.
Our July..
Why'd I have to go and do you like that?
Thought I'd moved on, then you brought me right back.
To the night you took my kiss away from me.
I took yours too, then I lost you.
Would you bring me back to holding hands in the rain,
I swear I'd ease your pain.
Lift you up so you could finally see
The love you are to me.
I've had time and I've had change
I've been broken but still I can't explain.
Our July in the Rain....hey..
Every part of me is broken now
I tried to scream but nothing came out
drop my pride and I reveal my inside
and it all came pouring out.
Would you bring me back to holding hands in the rain,
I swear I'd ease your pain.
Lift you up so you could finally see
The love you are to me.
I've had time and I've had change
I've been broken but still I can't explain.
Our July in the rain
This melody
will never speak
all the things that I regret if I could say anything
my apologies for the way I ended things
see I love you but it scared me,
you scared me,
you scared me,
you scared me,
would you please..
Bring me back to holding hands in the rain,
I swear I'd ease your pain.
Lift you up so you could finally see
The love you are to me.
I've had time and I've had change
I've been broken but still I can't explain.
Our July..oh oh oh oh
Would you bring me back to holding hands in the rain,
I swear I'd ease your pain.
Lift you up so you could finally see
The love you are to me.
I've had time and I've had change
I've been broken but still I can't explain.
Our July..
Tuesday 10 April 2012
Sometimes I really wonder WHY.
I went to attend the annual gradation tests yesterday,and I was sitting there minding my own business,when the door to the greenroom swings open,and I see HIM standing there.
One glance.One glance,and this stupid heart of mine couldn't control itself.BAM.
I fell(Read: again)for the very same person who dumped me for his studies.
YES.His studies.
Was somewhat like this.
*One glance*
*face promptly heats up*
I tried telling myself that I was over him,and he didn't matter anymore.
Then,my conscience decided to butt in.
On top of that,he sat two seats next to me,initiated the conversation,and kept turning his head and looking at me every two minutes.And looked away when I caught him looking.
I mean,what the hell.You're supposed to STAY AWAY from me,so you don't get uncomfortable.
SO much for trying to avoid him,and indirectly,my feelings.
We ended up eating lunch together,on the stairs,'cause there was no room inside.He could've checked and gone upstairs and taken his seat.But NO,he chose to sit with me.
Why?Why is he doing this?
I fell hard.He's perfect for me.I love everything about him,from his carefree attitude,to his flippant remarks,to his weird flat thumbs,to his scrawly signature..and..you get the point here.
Knowing that I can't have him,it's so painful.SO damn painful.
And then the storm kicked in.It was exhilarating,truly beautiful.But what the rain did was just this.It just brought all those happy memories back.
I cried myself to sleep last night,knowing I can't have him.
Today,we saw each other.Again.
And yes,he kept staring at me.
I was trying to ignore him,but then at this one point our eyes met and he promptly shifted his gaze.
FINE.I decided to completely ignore him.
Then he comes and decides to snap his fingers under my face after the program's over.What an arse.
We just talked for two minutes,that's all.
Thank god.
BUT.WHY?
Will be the question,for this lifetime.
One glance.One glance,and this stupid heart of mine couldn't control itself.BAM.
I fell(Read: again)for the very same person who dumped me for his studies.
YES.His studies.
Was somewhat like this.
*One glance*
*face promptly heats up*
I tried telling myself that I was over him,and he didn't matter anymore.
Then,my conscience decided to butt in.
On top of that,he sat two seats next to me,initiated the conversation,and kept turning his head and looking at me every two minutes.And looked away when I caught him looking.
I mean,what the hell.You're supposed to STAY AWAY from me,so you don't get uncomfortable.
SO much for trying to avoid him,and indirectly,my feelings.
We ended up eating lunch together,on the stairs,'cause there was no room inside.He could've checked and gone upstairs and taken his seat.But NO,he chose to sit with me.
Why?Why is he doing this?
I fell hard.He's perfect for me.I love everything about him,from his carefree attitude,to his flippant remarks,to his weird flat thumbs,to his scrawly signature..and..you get the point here.
Knowing that I can't have him,it's so painful.SO damn painful.
And then the storm kicked in.It was exhilarating,truly beautiful.But what the rain did was just this.It just brought all those happy memories back.
I cried myself to sleep last night,knowing I can't have him.
Today,we saw each other.Again.
And yes,he kept staring at me.
I was trying to ignore him,but then at this one point our eyes met and he promptly shifted his gaze.
FINE.I decided to completely ignore him.
Then he comes and decides to snap his fingers under my face after the program's over.What an arse.
We just talked for two minutes,that's all.
Thank god.
BUT.WHY?
Will be the question,for this lifetime.
Sunday 8 April 2012
Idk why,this really reminds me of you.
| He Is We - Light A Way .mp3 | ||
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The morning's here and we're still caught up in the night.
The sky was clear
And everything felt right
Our time is short but
I'm sure I'll see you soon.
We'll take another walk along the bridge and underneath the moon.
What a find, if I could I'd hit rewind
And replay all the moments
That I wished I could've called you mine.
And tonight I pray,
Light a way, (all my love)
Light a way, (from above)
Shine it down,
Lead me home
Back to him.
A night away and we've got a few to go.
And I've mastered the art of missing and my smile.
Life's a glow that you showed me
How to shine, that very night we were in twined
Oh god how I wish you were mine.
And tonight I pray,
Light a way, (all my love)
Light a way, (from above)
Shine it down,
Lead me home,
Back to him
Bring me back to him
Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray my heart you chose to keep
And if I die before I wake
All of me is yours to take
If I don't see you again
It'd take all I have within
Maybe I'll just stay awake
I think I'll just stay awake
Light a way, (all my love)
Light a way, (from above
Shine it down
Lead me home,
Light a way, (all my love)
Light a way, (from above)
Shine it down
Lead me home
<3
Yes,you.Again. -__-"
I tried to distance myself from you,the last day.
Because you're just so perfect. I'm probably just a hindrance to you.
So,I tried.Miserably failed wouldn't even begin to describe it. It was like I was trying to rip my heart out.I cried myself to sleep because the thought of leaving you was too much to bear.
I can't believe I cried SO much that night.
But you're so assertive,and so easily confident about the fact that I'll always be your sister,that it made me happy.Really happy.
So happy that I started crying again.Really,you can toy with my emotions without even doing anything. o.O
You're truly an amazing person,and I'm so happy that I can have someone like you as my brother.
Honest. :)
Because you're just so perfect. I'm probably just a hindrance to you.
So,I tried.Miserably failed wouldn't even begin to describe it. It was like I was trying to rip my heart out.I cried myself to sleep because the thought of leaving you was too much to bear.
I can't believe I cried SO much that night.
But you're so assertive,and so easily confident about the fact that I'll always be your sister,that it made me happy.Really happy.
So happy that I started crying again.Really,you can toy with my emotions without even doing anything. o.O
You're truly an amazing person,and I'm so happy that I can have someone like you as my brother.
Honest. :)
It's your daily weather report desu~
Shit cool.The only phrase to describe today's sky.
I went for a swim,because I knew that today there would be rain,and I had wanted to swim in the rain for a long time now.Yes,I did get embarrassed about the fact that my swimsuit was a...swimsuit,but then I forgot all my embarrassment when this fat woman,my senior wore this rather..skimpy one piece.
Hell woman,I'm much thinner.So I just went in the pool without hesitation,after her. :D
So I had nothing to do.
I floated aimlessly in the pool,and watched as the colors changed in the sky,from a light frothy pink,to a flirtatious blue,to insane yellow.
And the rain fell on my face all the while,calming me down.
The lightning was so vibrant,so breathtakingly beautiful as it streaked across the sky,leaving a blazing trail of light. <3 And the rain.I could stand forever and watch the skyline,if I could. This,is love. :')
I went for a swim,because I knew that today there would be rain,and I had wanted to swim in the rain for a long time now.Yes,I did get embarrassed about the fact that my swimsuit was a...swimsuit,but then I forgot all my embarrassment when this fat woman,my senior wore this rather..skimpy one piece.
Hell woman,I'm much thinner.So I just went in the pool without hesitation,after her. :D
So I had nothing to do.
I floated aimlessly in the pool,and watched as the colors changed in the sky,from a light frothy pink,to a flirtatious blue,to insane yellow.
And the rain fell on my face all the while,calming me down.
The lightning was so vibrant,so breathtakingly beautiful as it streaked across the sky,leaving a blazing trail of light. <3 And the rain.I could stand forever and watch the skyline,if I could. This,is love. :')
Peace nyan~
Today morning I was feeling rather down.
Then I went out,and this really strong wind almost knocked me down. -__-"
Oh,and btw.I went to the pool yesterday.SAW DAT KID IN HIS SWIMMING TRUNKS.
Poor guy,he looks malnourished.Still as cute as ever,though. :3
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